till the end of the world

2007-06-15T07:36:00.000-07:00

well.. 11th and 12th of june were my best days up til nw in 2007.. my spec course!!!! haha been kind of fun during the camp.. kind of short though..

1st day.. wake up very very very early.. then meet fiqah and rachel at bedok inter.. take mrt all the way to yio chu kang then walked to amoy quee ncc headquarters.. reached there then put on beret and went to our bunk.. haha.. lots of bees inside there.. then we had revision for GSK (General Specialist Knowledge) then had lunch.. where i made a few friends.. meiling, corrine from nan hua , jeremy from tampines and derick from westwood..
and we had to recite the specialist creed before all our meals.. after that we had IFC test (Individual Field Craft) which is the 1st part to our army ncc badge.. tink i screwed up in that test.. after that was dinner.. then we had our GSK test.. the test was hard.. cuz all stupid qns came out.. after that was supper then we were dismissed and we went back to take shower.. then 11pm.. lights off and we went to bed..

2nd day.. we woke up and changed into number 4.. then we fall in at ard 6.45am.. had breakfast and tats when i met another new fren.. leon frm anglican..went for train fire.. stripping and assembling of rifle and loading of magazine was easy for me.. but my IA and fundamental of marksmanship was once again screwed up.. then went for lunch.. then it rained.. and we had a course session.. after which.. we had rehearsals for graduation ceremony.. then we take our ranks and if were lucky to pass the army ncc badge test.. we got the cookie.. well it was scary cuz.. we learnt that there were people who stayed as senior coporal or who did not pass the army ncc badge test.. or the GSK test.. my envelope was the last to be given out then i tot it was me who stayes as cpl.. luckily no.. well i knew smt else.. my cert was printed 7 times before it was done correctly and then when the sirs get my name correctly.. the signature was wrong.. haha..now they remembered me cuz of my cert.. then we went to cleaned our bunks and time to go home.. well it was tiring.. but i loved it.. i will never forget the OIC,OC,CSM,S4 and my two PCs (CLT eugene and anisah).. and of course oscar company and last but not least..

OSCAR 3 OF SPECIALIST COURSE PHASE 3 2007 ROX~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

all the friends i made..i will treasure our friendship=DD

I LOVE SPEC COURSE!!!

2007-06-09T04:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday.. went to tjc for bv 2007 enchating moments concert.. all the performances were gd.. but i went there specially to support one of the performing arts group..XD

then went back to school and waited for them to go for supper.. zhiyun, liling, yapsheng, brandon, kok wai, nicholas, darren and a few of their juniors.. we went to mac to have our supper.. then went home after that..

then today..went to watch movie with peiqi and siyi at tm.. we watched legend of the sea.. featuring, JJ lin junjie, rynn lin yu zhong and jinsha.. quite a stupid show though.. esp the san jiao guai.. haha.. the way she sing.. funni sia.. then we went kfc cuz they wanna eat after which we walked ard.. then went home le..

tats all for today..=DD

2007-06-04T19:20:00.000-07:00

why am i feeling so complicated? izit because of that?
have been thinking about something for the whole of yesterday..
but..
should i?
should i not?
but someone tell me..
just to be someone you reali wanna be..
pursue what you truly wants..
but..
can i?

2007-06-03T07:23:00.000-07:00

not exactly in a good mood today.. but.. the math class today was quite interesting.. me and zhi jun were laughing at the conversation between Guo Yu n Mr kader.. haha..

then manda called and together with siyi.. we watched shrek 3 at tampines mall.. the show was so cute lahz.. especially the part where shrek babies were playing wit him=DD babies!!! so cute lahz.. though they are orges.. hah.. but reali life babies were cute too.. juz like my cousin..and my bro when he was young=DD I LOVE BABIES!!! haha.. sry.. kinda high.. haha..

then reached home.. were tinking about some stuff.. which almost causes my tears to flow again=( budden thanks to tai zhi i was laughing again.. he was damn funni lahz.. all the things he said.. haha.. he simply juz brightened up my dull day.. such a gd fren he is lahs!! haha

and of course thx to manda n siyi.. if nt i will be at home.. hu si luan xiang.. haha..

2007-06-02T17:58:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the bv bazaar.. our class profit should be not bad bahz.. hahaz.. based on the sale tat our drinks get sold out so quickly and had to went out to get more bottles of drinks like for ard 3 times?? haha.. then the water bombs.. so many people bought our bombs juz to get their friends wet.. and when it comes to free ice-cream.. more people came to our stall for it..haha..
and oh!!! mrs vytiallingam danced.. omg.. haha cool sia.. and.. dunno who dedicated songs to me?? shocked?? anyway.. might be a prank onli.. haha.. the most important thing is everyone is happy yesterday..

sometimes in life.. you have to give in and to understand.. dun always assume things without prove.. you have to be patient aso.. i guess.. i learned tat point..

maybe.. i was just being too paranoid..

2007-05-31T16:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday.. went to quite a few places with my family.. vivo city, bugis and china town.. then we went to have a nice dinner back at bedok=DD

i reali appreciate what i have now and i will treasure it.. i sensed the change and everything else.. things were not like the past.. not like "yesterday" and i am not afraid anymore.. when i talk to you.. i feel the love and happiness.. i guess tis time you are really serious and ready? i choose to believe tat..

baby i juz love you so....

2007-05-28T03:06:00.000-07:00

why do things always barged into your life without your permission? i dun reali know how to react.. until the later part of the thing.. i knew i had to make a decision.. and i did.. but the decision is with condition.. haha

anyway what i wanna say is.. dun gif up on urself even if people gif up on you.. everyone is born into the world with a purpose..no one is useless or a burden.. you have to love yourself before you want someone to love you.. onli then.. you will appreciate..

gif everything a chance.. dun gif it up without trying.. you will not succeed but lived in fear and feel depressed.. tats what i learn after being giving up myself for so long.. when you look for something.. it wont appear.. onli when you had been through all the tests dun care if they are a success or a failure.. that something will then come and look for you itself..

HAVE CONFIDENCE IN ALL THAT YOU DO!!! DONT GIVE UP EASILY!!

2007-05-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

today.. went out with parents.. n have a new classmate for the maths class at stalford..
there is training for me tomorrow.. and i think.. i am going to be so dead for it..

sometimes.. memories can kill you.. they just come back to you without any warning.. people aso.. they can firstly be cruel to you.. and once you decide to forget them.. they came back again.. why is this so? i reali do not understand..

2007-05-26T04:26:00.000-07:00

well.. exam is over, holiday starts today.. my results are not tat gd.. although i had improved..
tink i should spend my time during holiday to made improvement in my subjects..

sometimes.. i wonder.. wad is happening around me.. things that happened in my life are more of negative than positive.. i encounter many problems.. i know i am not the onli one.. but.. probably is cause i had too many failures, too many setbacks that causes me to be careful with everything.. even with people around me.. but some friends.. make me realise alot of things.. to open my heart to communicate with others..

some special frenz make me realise even more things.. thanks to them.. if not.. i dunno how am i going to face all these alone..haha..

enough of my story..

ps: sry someting is wrong wit my tagboard

2007-03-24T16:52:00.000-07:00

well.. it has been so long since i post..lots tings had happened.. both happy n unhappy.. complicated things aso.. but now.. everything is ok.. although hard work muz be put in to all these.. but it is worth it.. when everything is fine again..

sun shines after the rain=)

2007-02-10T03:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday was quite a terrible day for me.. was feeling quite depressed n tings lidat... and actually cried for about dunno how long.. dun even noe wad is wrong with me.. maybe i juz need some peace and be alone for some time..

well but have been tinking about some stuff and dunno if i should or should not do smt..
yesterday was the release of the GCE O Level result aso.. was happy that my frenz did well.. hope tat then can enter the college tat they wants..

tats all for today i tink...=)

2007-02-02T14:30:00.000-08:00

life nowadays were juz simply tired n stress.. i 've been longing to go to upper sec since i am in sec 1 but nw i want the reverse.. upper sec life is so tiring... simply no freedom at all.. well maybe there is some...but not as much.. and i am nt in sec 4 yet...omg...

i chose to have a change in my tinking.. in my attitude... in my words.. and everyting.. i want a new "me" .. i want to build up courage..and confidence..but i simply cannot leave my past behind..they have been hurting me alot.. though people always say to put down the past and start afresh, to look forward.. its not as easy as it is.. my failure in the past have pulled me back..
regardless of studies or wadsoever..

....at least.. i still have my bunch of frenz who cared.. who makes me feel better .. and i am really grateful...

ps: sry if u all cannot see the tagboard.. i will try to solve the problem as soon as possible..

2007-01-30T04:27:00.000-08:00

seemed like i have serious moodswings nowadays... dunno why also... sometimes i feel so relaxed.. sometimes i feel so stressed... what had happened???

izit because of school work or wad... i am kinda lost...

.......

btw zizing wan me to put her name..hahaz=)

2007-01-26T16:23:00.000-08:00

i am back..hahaz.. sorry for not posting the past few days as i am busy with alot of tings..
now..wad did i do over the past few days..hmm..actually lots of tins.. which makes me extremly tired..

but the more important ones is on wednesday and thursday

on wednesday, together with all my platoon mates, we went to Amoy Quee Camp for our live shoot.. live shooting is far more fun then IMT.. although is very loud.. but the sir there is nice and encourages us.. i pass the live range although i failed my IMT a week ago.. In short.. i love shooting=)

on thursday, we are suppose to go and give out the fliers to the residents tat we are going to collect old clothes for our overseas cip.. but.. onli two girls turn up.. one of my senior and me.. all the others were the ncc guys.. well.. quite unlucky.. to add on to these.. i actually sprained my ankle and lost my wallet?? wth.. have u seen anyone more unlucky than tat..?

well nvm.. one of my fren said.. it may bring luck to you after someting unlucky happened on you..i hope so..=)

2007-01-20T22:27:00.000-08:00

today wake up at 8am then msn on the com. then went for tution at 11 am..
met xinyi3 , xinyi4 and weibin along the way.. as i am still early for my tution, i went to have a meal with them at pizzahut..they are so funny.. dunno wad to eat..

after the meal..i went for my tution..but i was late..haha
went to look for them at the library after my tution ends..then went to buy tings with both the xinyi after which i went home..

tmr school starts again.. dun really likes to go to school now..so stressful and so busy.. there are so many tings to do..need to rush for lessons..rush for homeworks..etc..

how i hope to go back to sec 2..with all my frenz..

i miss 2e1 >.<

TESTING

2007-01-20T04:25:00.000-08:00

testing.